Thursday, May 19, 2011

sometimes lies beat the truth...

... but only for a little while. Right?
Hello my beautiful girls.  If you are old enough to be reading this, I think you already know how this all turned out, and you know the answer to that question.
Today is a sad day.  Your daddy found out that the courts are letting your mom move you all the way to Nevada.  This is "temporary" and the order only holds until we go back to court in September.  At that time the judge will decide if you have to stay there permenantly or not.  The problem is that even though the judge made a mistake, and he based his decision on some stuff that wasn't true, there doesn't seem to be a big chance of the court ordering your mom to bring you back home since he's letting her take you now.
4 years ago when your mom left us, I thought it was the worst day of my life.  Today, I realize how wrong I was.  Having her tear you girls away from me is far more painful than when she just took herself out of the picture.  To be quite honest with you, I don't really know what I'm going to do, or how I'm going to deal with this.  I guess by the time you are reading this you'll know the answer to that too.
Here's what I do know.  I've got you both for the entire month of June.  Plan on spending most of that snuggling. 


After that, I have a few weekends scattered around the summer to spend with you.  It isn't nearly enough time, but we will make the most of it like we usually do. 
I lack the vocabulary to sufficiently describe how devistating it is for me that you are moving. I found out about 3 hours ago, and have been barely able to function since. As I type this, I can feel my mind just shutting down. I can only imagine how you are feeling now as your mom breaks the news to you.  I know how much you both want to live with me, I know how hard it is for us to be away from each other.  Don't be too mad at your mom.  She doesn't know.
There are a lot of people who love you and your daddy, and we are receiving a lot of support and prayers from them.  I'll keep praying that this turns out better in September, and I know you will too. 
I do have faith that it will still go better for us girls.  If not now, in September.  If not in September, then next year. If not next year... you get the picture.  Our happy ending does not end with us being sad and apart from each other.
Please know that however this turns out, your daddy is still your daddy and always will be.  And I will never stop fighting for you both. 
Dads don't give up on their little girls.  Because little girls need their dads... almost as much as dads need their little girls.

3 comments:

Melissa said...

Dear Dave,
...I am praying...praying for you to have peace, praying for your girls, praying for your ex to find some clarity and come to her senses. I know that I do not know all the details...but it doesn't matter.

I am so happy to hear that you will have all of June to play and snuggle with your little sweeties.

Chad and I continue to think of you all daily and hope that you will pull out of this darkness and keep on fighting the good fight....

WE LOVE YOU!!! Melissa and Chad oxoxoxoxo

Palmyra said...

Those little girls are very lucky to have a Daddy that loves them so much. I hope the Judge can see that.

BriAnne said...

Hey Dave,
This is a beautiful post, I feel priveleged to read it. I wish there was something I could do to make things better, to make it not hurt so bad. As always you have our love and prayers. I guess all we can do is try to live right, keep an eternal perspective, and trust that in the end Heavenly Father will somehow make it all right. But that doesn't make it hurt less now. I wish I could give you a big little-sis-hug... I'm sending it through your blog. I love you so much.
BriAnne